Friday, September 03, 2004
well... i'd sae i haven't yet blogged for a couple of daes. but that aint the point. damn... i so hate the hols. its jus gettin so damn boring... im jus gonna fill my whole week with books? haizz.. tho i wanna get to sec two.. yess no doubt.. so i'll be back soon.. **if there's anything to blog in my borin life** so ta-ta... ;P
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posted @ 9:41 PM
+ + + Wednesday, August 25, 2004
tell mi y? y do u wan mi to hate u? i love u. and it takes that much to love. and how much more does it to hate? pls. i dun wanna leave u. if i have to leave u, i'd rather first leave myself. life jus brings so much pain. one dae, it might jus start snowing, and the other, its spring again. if i could promise myself a place in heaven now, i'll leave tis earth immediately. but i belive that each person on tis earth, has a reason to live. and for that reason, im here todae. but.. wads the reason?! y the hck do i try so damn much to be on the earth to go thru so much sufferin? i noe my sufferins cant be compared to those in places where they die of hunger.. but i'd rather be there. then here. bcoz mentally, i now im not strong. and i went thru so damn mcuh to pick myself up. and now, i feel as tho im fallin again. all those hu were with mi, helped mi thru it. and wad does life giv back in return??? *some people are jus feignin ignorance that they care. others, are jus gonna leave mi sooner or later. but u... pls dun leave mi...*
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posted @ 7:19 PM
+ + + Tuesday, August 17, 2004
wads after u die? wads after tat coffin? wads after this world?
i've been tryin to pull myself up to live life to the fullest.. but.. i jus dun see the point.. you live, you will eventually die.. so y not do it earlier? see my heavenly father sonner.
everydae, ppl die.. but.. wasnt eternal life granted to them as well? wasnt it? everydae, ppl pass from this world to the next.. wasnt eternal life granted to them as well?
everydae, its a challenge.. jus to pull myself togther.. jus to wear that smile on my face.. and i can sae, i've accomplished that.. but.. tats on the surface.. there's another side of mi.. one tat onli few has seen.. and i can sae that these few realli noe mi..
charmaine, life has been hard.. and all these while, you've been there to help and to hold mi.. and like i've said, your my best fren.. the one hu noes mi the most.. and you helped mi wen im feelin down.. or sad.. but.. tho we sometimes fall, we get back up on our feet.. thanks for everything..
cheryl.. you've pulled mi thru.. perhaps, we've jus known each other for less then a year.. but i realli mus thanks god for bringin us together.. and realli, i can relate alot of things to you.. some tat others might not understand.. so i jus wanna sae thanks.
jingying... thanks for lettin mi see the point of life even as bleak as it may seem..
and to everyone out there hu cares about mi.. and loves mi.. i promise you'll.. i will try to live my life to the fullest.. and not dispair.. *its not my time yet?*
posted @ 4:24 AM
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